The last few weeks have been an absolute shocker. My only consolation is my dear friends and acquaitances are in a similar situation - I am sure it is winter that is doing it. As I previously posted, I was contemplating going to a new meeting with my girls Tina and Tania. I have thought about it long and hard, got a lovely email from Tania who despite her own issues at present, made me decide. With going to a new meeting one of the negatives is that it is a way to travel, but as Tania said, I think it is worth it. I have decided to go next Tuesday to Mawson Lakes with Tania and Tina and my friend Karen is contemplating going. I know the leader is great, apparently the class is great and interactive, I get support from 2 friends and possibly a third. It comes an event and not just a WW Meeting, plus we have a skinny latte after. I have decided basically, if I want my life to change - then I need to do it. I can't keep going on and on about the same stuff, complaining I am unhappy, fat, have sore feet etc if I fail to act upon it. There is no crime in being selfish. I can set my interim goal again to the 4 consecutive losses and then get my Lorna Jane bag. I suppose I have just realised that it comes down to me, we all know that, but at the end of the day I need to get my mindset in gear. I am lucky my friends Tania and Tina are wonderful, kind and considerate girls that I know will be there for me. I find I need the support of like minded people, what I mean is people that have previously or are undergoing weight loss issues that understand my pain. I would like to think that Mawson Lakes would be source of inspiration. I would like to star this journey on the right foot, in that my measurement will be taken shortly, a photo (I have that horrid one I posted the other day) as my before and think I need to mentally prepare myself. I suppose it is like a drug addict in a way, I need to do this for myself and after all, no one can do it for me. I want to be the best person I can be, instead of feeling ashamed all the time. I want to be organised at home, this weekend is preparation Weight Watchers. I have a friend over for lunch on Father's Day (my date lives interstate) and want to stock the freezer etc and be organised, if I am organised with the house, everything else falls into place. I am luck the gym is sorted so that is not something I need to worry about.