Well, where to begin ! I should be doing housework and packing for my trip home, the house is a mess but that can wait for the time being.
Last week was busy, I work for a law firm and most law firms close during the Christmas period - mine closes from 23/12/09 at 12pm and re-opens on 6/1/10. So with the additonal solicitor I am working for, things have been busy. Some of you may or may not know, my last job had me working horrendous hours for am employer where I wasn't even allowed to take leave (other than the christmas break) and as we were understaffed, my stress levels were high. I was approached by my current employer to work for her, as I had previously worked with her many years ago, and the workload wasn't as large as I expected, now with the additonal solicitor who specializes in MVA claims, it is all happening - so this last week was shocking and next week worse, but the focus must be on one task at a time.
I am lucky in this job to be able to have 1 RDO off a month, so Friday I was at the gym at 7am with my friend, and did all my shopping, WI at WW Lifestyle Centre - gained 400 grams but I have had a lot of Christmas functions and TOM is due and I always gain. Gribbles Pathology rang me and need more blood, the 3 previous vials were not enough, so by the time I got home by 5.30pm I was exhausted. During the day I popped into see my dear friend Tania who has been trying to be superwoman, running a house, kids, WW, exercising like a demon and the demands of doing 2 jobs at work whilst a fellow employee was on maternity leave, so I dropped off some flowers to say I loved her and for her to chill during the first few days of her holidays. She made a lovely comment on her blog and facebook, in my life my friends are such a huge and important part - they are all just loved and each bring a different part to my life. Tania is my WW person, my WW rock and the voice of reason when I am off track. I think that gesture had an impact on her but it is what I do. Like the other day when a personal trainer at the gym has gone above and beyond her job to make me feel comfortable, I wrote a letter to the manager and praising her enthusiasm and support of me. My first solo effort at the gym was a little nerve wracking, whilst getting changed I mentioned this was my first time without my friend, 10 minutes later she came over to see how I was going, each time I get a supportive word or if I have a query about the program that was designed for me by another trainer a helpful tip. The manager actually looked out for me and thanked me. I said "it is what I do" I refuse to be a person that whinges all the time.
Weight Watcher had me secure a gain, with TOM due I always gain and the Christmas season being what it is, I was surprised but on review probably deserved 400 gram gain. Di my leader asked me to take 30 minutes during the Christmas break to "Think about what you want to achieve in the next year" although the WW staff members and my leader did comment on that I was looking good and re-focused, actually I am and I think that purging of my feelings helped, I plan to lose weight at my next weigh in on 8/1/10 as I am not sure when I am back from Broken Hill with my niece.
Overall, this time of year is great, the end of one year and the mistakes that have been made, with a fresh brand new year ahead. I am taking time to evaluate all things in my life, striving ahead for the type of life I want and getting the demon weight off and the issues associated with it.
I am quite relaxed about the WW journey, I believe with WW you can get the food balance right in that you can really enjoy what you eat, not feel like you are dieting which is not what we are doing anyway, learning that exercise is your friend both physically and mentally.
I suppose I would like to set myself a monthly goal of some desription, by the end of January 2010 I want to do a pump class, face my fear and get on with it. The gym is an enjoyable haven for me, at times I struggle to finish my workout as I am just exhausted from lack of sleep and the symptoms of my lung condition, but I do it - I am looking forward to the New Year, I want consistent losses.
I wish everyone the happiest Christmas and safe New Year, for us that are struggling to lose those excess kilos - together I am sure next year is the year this will happen. I have learnt the mental edge is what helps, if you have the focus the road is not hard.
Please feel free to comment and put any personal goals, challenges or even 2010 resolutions on your comment. I may well remind you of these when I read your blog in 2010.